February 1, 2013
The title of this blog is: On getting out of my own way again.. The again is because I actually wrote this in June of last year, and got in my own way and didn't hit publish, the original blog, on getting out my own way, is in blog limbo or blog purgatory. So here goes..I had a conversation recently with someone I respect very much about momentum, and my inability to maintain any. In these days of access to so much information, all the secrets to elusive success, seemingly within fingertip reach, it should be easier, more simple to get on course and leap from mountain top to mountain top. It all starts to sound like the same advice, and obviously, advice I'm not taking. I have been guilty of not celebrating my successes, while internally berating myself for not doing more. More what exactly, I couldn't say. I am not a person who has laser vision, the ability to focus on one thing and one thing only for days, weeks, years, minutes( ok , well that is a bit of an exaggeration) I , as you may know, if you have read any of my other blogs, have many and varied interests. Finally, at this point in my life, I am unapologetic about that. I do not need or care to explain why, or endure conversations about why drilling down to one thing would help me achieve more. Again, more what I say...It is much the same way I now address any questions about how I approach music, interpret phrases and share lyrical stories. It is my way. I am content if I have connected myself to something in a piece of music, even if it was not quite what I had hoped for. If I could take one thing into this year, it would be to get out of my own way. Allow more flow, do what I do best, which is to be better than yesterday. I have had a habit in my life of choosing to do and learn things that were not easy for me, and becoming, if not an expert, at least, passably proficient. I get a lot of joy from that. Maybe that is it, maybe the more I should be striving for is joy. Here's to more joy, for everyone.